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Depth of Depression

admin — Sat, 29 May 2010 17:13:10 +0000

I don’t like the idea of getting depressed. But I have not yet found a way out to get rid off depression. Day by day my depth of depression increases. People says man propose God oppose. Why should he do so? I thought about it a lot of time, but did not get any answer. Most of the time, I do not get what I want. Why this happens to me? I think about it often.

People who are deeply depressed, cannot concentrate on his current goal, as a result the chance to accomplish the goal is very little. Most of the time he fails, this failure leads to more depression, and that depression again cause failure. Thus the failure circle continues.

Now the question is how one can get out of the circle. Some says failure is the pillar of success. It is true if the target is earn-able by hard work or merit. But what will happen it your luck plays an important role achieving the target?

I tried to analyse the situation, when the target is dependant on luck, you have to try your luck. When targeting a goal, a backup plan is necessary. Because luck may not always favour. In that case separate path can be adopted to get the target.

Main reason of the depth of depression is the lack of backup plan.

Forgetting the previous failure is not an easy task. So the last failure may affect the current progress. This is also a cause of depression and lost of self-confidence. Self-confidence is necessary when you are dealing with people who are intellectual. Self-confidence will do nothing if you jump from hundred metres above the ground and have the confidence that you will remain un-hurt.

The surrounding and environment around also plays a role in the depth of depression. If the environment is hostile, you will get less chance to achieve your goal. It is true that there will be a lot of hindrance on the path, but what will happen if you face one obstacle while dealing with anther one and thus continues ?

Fuel Out

admin — Sat, 27 Mar 2010 17:33:48 +0000

How is the feeling of being fuel out? How uncomfortable one feels when he or she seems to be fuel out? When we got extremely tired, our mind seems to be fuel out. I feel this fuel out situation once a day. When I return home after my busy day, I feel extremely tired. I feel if I could sleeep for thousand years. I feel if I could take a shower for hours, so that my tiredness got washed out with the water flow. I feel if I could lay down on the grass on the open field and close my eyes.

Fuel out situation is extremely painful. It slows down the sprit of work, degrade the concentration and arise mental unhappiness. I am mentally very unhappy in real life.

Touch

admin — Sat, 20 Mar 2010 12:07:25 +0000

I have heard and seen some people having ultra touch sensitivity. I saw blind people who can say the amount of a money note by touching it. How developed their touch sense is? People in my country say, the Almighty Creator gives extra sense to those people who has no sense in a field. The blind has no sense of seeing. He do his regular work by touch. The science says, when any sensing organ of a being becomes deactive, the brain can put more effort on other sensing organ. So othre sensing power goes higher. So according to them if you close your eyes and let touch everything you find on the way and practise to recongnise what is that, you can certainly gain a heavily developed touch sensitivity. Touch may trigger another sense too.

Cultural beauty

admin — Thu, 18 Mar 2010 17:16:38 +0000

When we can say a culture to be beautiful? I can define a culture to be beautiful when all the traditions, rules, rituals, behaviour and occasions of a culture is harmless to all, followed by the nations and the culture is cultured throughout the generations. We handed over our traditions and rules of culture generation to generation.

When a culture grow up, it has many odd rules, rituals, occasions. Day by day, people who follow the culture begin to feel that there are something worng in the culture. The extremist try to keep the culture as it was. But the wise people change it for the betterment of human being.

Think about old hindu culture, the widow was burnt to ashes. It was inhumane. The wise Raja Ram Mohon Roy understood this and withdrew the rule to burn widow. In Bangladesh it was a part of our tradition to deprieve the girls in almost every sense. Drowry system takes a lot of life of female sex in this country. The Old greek used to have sex with boys. In the old Tibet the corpse was cut into pieces and put on the mountain top for the vultures to eat. At 10th century in China the young female child’s foot were wrapped so that they cannot grow normally. The Mayan, the Aztecs, and many other civilization used to sacrifice human being to satisfy their god. Until Sui Dynasty, castration was traditional punishment and the way to get imperial post in old China. In old Brazil, the man has to tame the donkey of a peroson, whose daughter he wants to marry. In Polynesia the bride has to have sex with all the male guests in the wedding ceremony. Isn’t it odd? These are the signs of sick traditions. Many of the sick trations are wiped out from the earth. But many prevails. We have to eradicate all harmfull customs so our culture will be beautiful.

Curve

admin — Wed, 03 Mar 2010 17:57:44 +0000

Curve is a combination of a lot of small segmented straight line. So small segment of straight line is the source of all kind of curves not in the drawing board but also in our nature and life. Curve has some strange things over straight line. You can create a curve with some small segmented straight line but the reverse is not possible. If you join few curves it will create a complex curve but not a cruve. But putting curves of same shape and curvature may create a straight line like thing (not really a straight line).

A beautiful World

admin — Sun, 28 Feb 2010 18:16:41 +0000

A beautiful world does not mean that the world is full of precious and eye catching things. When we can say that our world has become beautiful? It is true that the world has a lot of beautiful things to notice. Are this enough to declare our world beautiful? I say no, because a beautiful world is another definition. Balance always plays a major role in beautification. A beautiful world is meant to be a balanced world in ecological, economic and cultural sense.

Every person has his or her own world, when will we say his or her world is beautiful? It is not easy, because a person may not express his or her world to other. Hiding personal world does not mean that that his or her world is nasty. When a person has a nice environment, cool friends and relatives in contact, just, love, devotion in mind we can say he or she has a beautiful world.

Beauty by definition

admin — Sat, 27 Feb 2010 17:24:07 +0000

What is beauty? Something pleasant, smooth, easing or something else that makes a sense of feeling good. How can we define beauty? How can we measure it? Well it is relative to the tastes of the human being. We say a thing is beautified when external ornament is applied. We say a thing natural beauty when the thing is genuine and nothing is applied on it. The adjective beauty creates a lot of sense in our mind, depending on situation.

3 Idiots

Sondha — Fri, 05 Feb 2010 15:59:41 +0000

Few days ago I watched the bollywood movie 3 idiots. The things that impress me is that, they have expressed, many difficulty, situation of student life and mostly what may happen if the teachers are confined to old views. That is why I am writing this post. Although the film is a comedy, it has touched some sensitive factor such as commiting suicide. When a student commit suicide? Either he or she got love-lorn, or lost hope for life. In that movie Joy lost hopes. How he lost hopes? Due to extreme pressure from the teacher. It is well said that the teacher builds the country. And it can be easily assumed what will happen if the teachers lead the student to commit suicide. I am a student too. I know while studying engineering life goes out of control. We act like machine due to heavy weight of course. The movie reflects our lifestyle too.

Session and GUID

admin — Mon, 31 Aug 2009 22:56:04 +0000

What is session? Definitely it is a period of time. In case of web, we can define session as period of time when an Internet user interacts with a particular web page or web application. The session is identified by GUID (Globally Unique Identifier). GUID is a special type of 128 bit identifier. That is it can identify 2 to the power 128 unique Internet user. The world does not have too many Internet user as the GUID can generate as many ids. So according to Pigeon Hole Principle, there is at least 0 id that is possessed by two unique users.

What will happen if the number of Internet user reaches or crosses the number 2 to the power 128? Well in this case according to Pigeon Hole Principle, more than one user can have the same id. But we have a lot of computer geeks and engineers. We already have 64 bit processor. Our genius computer scientist will raise the GUID to 256 bit from 128 bit. It is a very easy task to generate 256 bit id using our current processor let alone our future processor. I think it will take some centuries to reach 2 to the power 128 Internet user let alone 2 to the power 256. The number of current Internet user is about 1,668,870,408 . I get this data from InternetWorldStat.com.

2 to the power 128 equals to 340,282,366,920,938,463,463,374,607,431,768,211,456. I don’t know how many centuries will pass to reach this number. So till then the GUID will provide us a unique 128 bit id for each unique Internet user.

Something like freedom………..

admin — Wed, 28 Jan 2009 18:07:41 +0000

I asked myself, “what is freedom?” What does it actually resembles to? When I think about freedom I feel thrilled. But am I free or are we free actually? I don’t think all the people are free. People may have weakness for a special thing. This may cause them to loose freedom, as this weakness will not allow them to do what they want. Again it does not resembles that you will carry on a brutal action to establish your freedom. That is not freedom actually. 3 monthes ago I observed out Victory day, and Independece day is knocking at the door. Many years passed since we got our freedom. But are we able to do whatever we like to do with in limit?